A Heavy Heart

I am very guarded.I share on social media, but not usually alot about my personal life. I figure if you know me you know me. But most on here get to know me by reading my blog mainly...so here it goes.Last week for me was a very confusing week. My heart was very heavy.I lost a younger cousin to Cancer who was just 27. Although I had not seen him in awhile, I was remembering when he was a baby and a toddler and it just saddened me that this sickness had taken his young life. Thing that bothered me the most was this was now the third cousin on that side of the family that I had kind of grew up with that had passed that was under the age of 35.Then there was the suicides of Kate Spade and Anthony Bourdain.I was familiar with both persons work and like a lot of others, I would have never guessed this.For some reason, death even when not knowing a person directly is odd for me.I start questioning the meaning of life. The why's and the how's for some reason.I am not sure what to make of it.I just feel for each family member who is experiencing loss, whether sudden or expected.Grief sucks, loss sucks and it hurts.  Until next time...